If I had the balls.. this is exactly what i’d say to him
I want you to know that where the first one that had the chance to take my heart how it was.. innocent and untouched by anyone else’s ways to give heartbreak. You where the one who made me like the idea of a single rose instead of a dozen because you where the first one to ever think of giving me one just because you wanted to. You where the one who made me like being kissed on the cheek and forehead instead of the lips because thats what you would do when I used to fall asleep on your shoulder. You where the one that helped me trust arms around me because you would always sneak up behind me and squeeze me tight. Your the reason why I like my hand inside a bigger one because you had the biggest. Your the reason why i love being picked up when where being silly because i was always so much tinier than you. Your the one who made me fall in love with cuddling to scary movies because that was an every night thing for us. Your the one who taught me to be spontaneous because from the start thats just who you where. Your the one who taught me to throw the best spiral because football was what you loved. Your the one who made me feel beautiful even in my uniform because you loved me with my hair up and loved when i came over in my practice clothes. Your the one who filled my head with poetic lyrics because thats what you would write to me in every card you gave me. Your the one who i had my very first song to share with because you thought of me everytime you heard it and made it ours. Your the one who gave me my first nickname because you thought lovebug fit me perfectly. You where my first biggest fan besides my dad because you came to every game, recital and track meet you could. You where the first jersey i got to wear in highschool because i was your biggest fan. You where the first kiss in the backseat of my parents car because i felt that close to you. You where the first person i made anything with because we made a pizza and made a mess in the kitchen if your house but laughed for hours after because it was so funny. You where my first prom date because you where my boyfriend and we where happy and looked so good in baby blue. You where the first one to find my most tickeliest spots because you would do it knowing i hated it. Your the first one i nursed back to health and went with to get your first tattoo because you wanted me to be there with you. Face it.. your the first person i meant “i love you” too and Your the one who taught me about life and love together.Maybe one day you’ll realize that what we had was no joke and happiness wasnt worked for because its what we had. I still miss you every day.. thinking about you pisses me off and i wish i never met you sometimes but thats just the biggest lie.
2:30 in the morning..
I havent written in a while and its simply because my college life is CRAZY! Im literally up every night until 2, 3 in the morning.. haha its just the norm now haha. Since iv been here a lot has happened.. iv been to Frat parties, downtown exploring, clubbing in Akron, movies in the pool, late night walks… the list goes on ;) I recently made the KSU legacy dance team and am the 3rd out of 3 white girls on the team! Hell yeahhhh :) so now i have dance team practice tuesdays and thursdays from 6-9! Im also in ROTC for the army and its like a huge family.. both my roomate and I are now known as the GI Janes and cadet kellys on our floor <3 UGHHH Im tired.. time to jump into bed with Tay and Dani <3 another girls night sleepover in 126 NBD:)
First night at Kent <3
So… Im flippen sitting in my dorm with my roomate Taylor (my long lost sister<3) listening to Sammie Adams. Our room is so cute.. even though it was the toughest thing to move into. We ended up lofting our beds so im typing on my desk under my bed.. its like my own little area. Iv got my girls next to me on my wall, my boyfriend infront of me and “stay Beautiful” spelled out on the wall :) I love it :) The girls on my floor are really really innocent and bubbly except for the two next door. There straight from the heart of New York and they walk around like they run the floor.. its the first day watch yourself your a fucking freshman. Anyways.. we had our first floor meeting and met our RA. Shes soooo chill :) its gunna be a good time this year! College is so weird.. like SOO different. You make your own rules, go as you please and just live it up :)
welllll Im outt to a Fratt party :) i love college
